Poor in Spirit vs. Blessed are those who are poor.

Holy Spirit teach us what it means to be poor in spirit.

I came across this prayer on twitter tonight and it got my spirit churning in a thousand ways. The desire and thirst for Him is so deep in me. He is drilling a well deep down in my heart. All I want is more. Increasing the depths of Him is the ONLY thing I want on this earth. Because He is Holy, Good, nothing can compare to Him, this is my desire.

But in this fast driven world, there are so many distractions keeping us away from God, so this simple yet loaded prayer is so vital because it helps me understand the desperation for Christ. The desperation to KNOW him on an intimate level, to hear Him, to feel His goodness. AH~ my heart. My life.

When I was in Honduras for a mission trip, I read in Matthew 5:3 where it says "Blessed are those who are poor", I understand that these people have nothing, they are the definition of poverty yet they are blessed because they KNOW God. They depend on Him because that's all they have.

Let this resonate with you tonight.

May you realize how poor we are and may your spirit thirst for more of HIM.

Press into Him tonight as you close your eyes and tastes His glory.

no boundaries.

 God has taken me to a new depth of His love this summer. The biggest thing that the Lord showed me was the fact that He is limitless and boundless. There is nothing that can stop Him from establishing what He wants to do through me. He can push me as far as He wants to. But, it's up to me to say yes- even to the unknown and allow Him to carry me through the process. I am excited that He has planted in me gifts that will be used for such a plan as this. My heart is in a posture of surrender knowing that the process isn't easy but it is worth it to see the promise unfold.

the "valley" season.

As I'm sitting here relaxing after a long day of meetings and training, I realize how much God is in control of what He wants to do through me. More than that, I see how He just wants the best for me right now. He never waivers and is always on time to give me exactly what I need. 

After I graduated from college, all I wanted to do was earn a living for myself and support myself. That's it. I just wanted the simple way out. I just wanted to work, earn and live. 

 BUT I had to check myself and realized that I love God and rather be obedient to Him, so I prayed this. 

"God, I love you. Close every door that's not of you and open just the right one. I rather follow you and be on this narrow road than to just do it my way. Heck, I don't even know what I'm doing. I trust You. Spirit just lead me. In Jesus name, Amen." 

So in the course of 5 months, the Lord completely wrecked my heart and showed me His character, daily. Everyday would be something different. One day, He showed me what an amazing Father He is, another day He would discipline me and reel me back to His Word and other days He would simply romance me with His gentleness. He showed me how His character in the word really aligns to who He is to me. He told me to do three things: Pray, obey and be. So I did. As I was learning His character, I began to realize that this whole being obedient thing wasn't fun or easy. Every door that I wanted open, wasn't getting opened. I was failing. Everything. I was trying to fullfill MY will not, His. But God was so quick to remind me of my prayer. I needed surgery fast. I needed a heart change. If anything it was like my lungs were so filthy and useless that the surgeon had to go in and replace it with a new one. And He sure did. 

God was more concerned with building my character and changing my heart than to simply give me a promotion (that's what I was looking for.) I was learning how to love, be patient,  have joy, be gentle, be kind, have self control, be patient and walk in faithfulness and goodness. (gal) AND To walk in justice, humbleness and mercy. (micah 6:8) Don't get me wrong. I am still in this season.  

He shifted the atmosphere of where I was living and moved me back home. Through that, He provided literally EVERYTHING for me. Even more!

 He is currently realigning my priorities, giving me passion and really focusing my gaze on Him, His presence, His word, His people, His church and His will. 

In this time, I know He is keeping me in the valleys and wilderness but in those moments that He exposes my story, my voice, my song. I can't help but to stand at His feet in awe of how perfect His timing is. 

Sister, your time is coming. Your time will come. But in this moment, cherish how Jesus is pursuing you. He longs to know you. This is just a piece of what He has been doing in the course of 6 months. 

 Find your passion but let Him work in you first. It's the most precious gift you could ever ask for. 

His presence.

It has been on my heart to share how much God loves you and wants to draw near to you!

His presence is so thick and tangible once you press in and let Him move. Recently, I was standing  singing and all of a sudden, I found myself in the heaviness and weight of Jesus. His eyes were gleaning right into mine and all I could do was press my heart towards His. At that moment, I realized how much He is pursuing me and how He is in love with me. Did I do anything to deserve this kind of love? None. Zip. Nada. He just loves me not because of who I am but because that's who He is. That's His character. Never in my life have I experienced such love. My eyes watered and couldn't help but to sway towards His hugs. His touch. The weight of His glory is deep, THICK. 

And the LORD said to Moses, "Behold, I come to you in the thick cloud, that the people may hear when I speak with you, and believe you forever." So Moses told the words of the people to the LORD. Exodus 19:9 

His presence is thick and you can't deny it. I am praying right now in the name of Jesus that you experience His presence in such a way that you meet Jesus face to face and you get so overwhelmed that it draws you to yours knees. It will change you forever. 

The Father's love for you

The Father's love for you is great. Big. Mighty. Huge! 

He provides. He guides. He leads. 

He loves. He's persistent. He's Wonderful. 

He's the best dad in the world. He cares. 

He wants you to just press in. Hug Him. Kiss Him. 

Be in relation with Him. Soak up His presence because 

all He wants to do is draw near to your heart. 

Let Him and you will receive an abundant amount in return. 

It's mind blowing. 

to those who wait.

In this season of waiting on the Lord, I have learned 6 things about God.
1. He is faithful. always.
2. He has created YOU for a purpose only YOU can fullfill!
3. He answers prayers
4. He is persistent in pursuing YOU
5. He has a plan for you.
6. He likes surprising His kids

After graduating from college, I have been waiting on God to just give me a break through.  I just wanted Him to drop me in a school and have me teach for the rest of my life. I mean, that's the "easy" way out, right? I would get paid a substantial amount of money and have a job for the rest of my life. But then the Lord reminded me of Himself, His Kingdom, His Word and who would get the Glory out of the activities that I do with my life.
So, I decided to just pray and obey.
As I was walking alongside the Lord, He showed me how much He wanted to fellowship with me. He showed me how much He wanted to hangout with me. He reminded me how He would never leave me in the dust and that He has created me to fullfill a purpose in which only I fullfill. He revealed Himself to me and showed me that He is with me every step of the way. As I was asking for certain qualities such as humility and patience, the Lord answered those prayers and taught me along the way. In that time, He also revealed to me specific gifts He has wired me with. Then, in that specific timing at the right place (home: not what I wanted at all), He opened up opportunities to specifically serve His people and even gave me a job that was MORE than what I imagined. He aligned my path for me. He had His hand in everything and He surprised me. What I got was not what I ever expected.
If you wait on the Lord, He will begin to change what's on the inside before He changes your situations/circumstances.

My prayer is for you to just let Him move.

some quotes.

"My heart’s desire is that everything I do is an overflow. It’s just an expression of my love for Him. I was made to love and be loved."

- Steffany Frizzell

GOD HAS DONE ALL HE CAN TO FILL THE SPACE IN BETWEEN US. AND IF THERE IS ANY SPACE NOW, IT’S BECAUSE I CREATED IT… IT’S BECAUSE I PLACED SOMEONE ELSE THERE."

STEFFANY FRIZZELL

my journey.

believe- [adheres to, trusts in and relies on Him]

I have been going through a season of unbelief. I haven't been adhering, trusting or relying on Christ for everything. I mean, there are things that I've given up but others I quickly take back and try to resolve.
But!
I am deeply overwhelmed by God's patience and love for me. Every time that I turn my eyes away from Him, He brings me back to the promises he has in store for me. Even through the night when it's hard for me to fall asleep or when I wake up in the middle of the night, I feel my bones aligned with the Creator of the Universe. I feel His gentle smile and comfort intensifying in my soul. The Peace that only He can give you is what I know and I choose to know that because it will never leave. He said He would never leave us nor forsake us. So why do I always feel like I'm stranded? Why do I worry? Why do I have these questions when I know God is looking at me with His tender eyes telling me that He has it and with Him ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
"All my bones shall say, Lord, who is like You, You Who deliver the poor and the afflicted from him who is too strong for him" Psalm 35:10
It is beautiful to see how much the Lord cares for such a wretch like me. I don't have much to give or offer but the Lord sees the beauty in me because He sees the blood of His son on me. I am thankful to be a child of God and not have to worry because my Dad is so amazing. He blesses me, tells me on a daily basis that I am His favorite and gives me gifts in abundancy (John 1:12) when I don't deserve it.
All I can do is lift my hands up in the air with gratitude and thanksgiving for the love that He has lavished upon me.
This is my response. This is to You, my King.